Patience

There is one thing that is certain. If you don't have patience, life will be that much more difficult. I'm finding that the most difficult thing right now is just getting back to being me. I will admit I haven't been Ashlee full force for quite some time. But this time is just different. Every month after about two days I can usually jump right back up on my feet and get ready for the next challenge. Not the case this time. A portion of this would be due to my short experience on bed rest. I admire those who have actually experienced a severe case of bed rest, I don't know how they do it! I felt I handled it pretty well.. had to get out my patience wand a few times as a reminder though. And let's not forget about the wonderful friends that would often visit to keep me company. That definitely helped. The challenge now is being able to walk more than a block without getting exhausted. When I exert myself I definitely pay for it afterwards, but if I don't do it, how will I get better. My next concern is my sleeping. Anyone who knows me knows that sleep is a strong suit of mine! Now when I toss and turn in bed until after midnight each night I'm finding that's no longer true. Let's hope this doesn't last long. Then there is the ultimate challenge... getting through the day without wanting to cry. I'm definitely a sensitive person, but wow this is on a whole other level. I was in talking to a few co-workers at Contents yesterday and they asked how I was doing. I had to concentrate so hard on what I could say without breaking into tears. Now I succeeded, but it wasn't smooth and I often leave people hanging without them actually knowing what's really going on or how I'm feeling. Anyhow I keep telling myself that it just takes patience and time.